sirens...

i have traveled farther into my castle after spending time feeding in the city lights... i saw prophet today, ah, he is so young! we find excellent adventures together, mostly of him showing off for me... he is so vibrant and altogether blunt, it's... he is beautiful, but still has not grown into his teeth. i love watching him try so hard, so determined to shock me, and sometimes i humour him and other times i just let him think he's really onto something... i wish he weren't leaving so soon, but, this will allow him to grow... and i suppose i could make time for him in the future, but until then, we have adventures and what else is there really to bleed for? he works at shocking others as well, and this is altogether different, because this, we work on together. we compete to be the center of attention and of course i always win because the males and females of that species find me both attractive and threatening where he has trouble keeping the attention of the males while i strut through a crowd barely speaking... just watching and waiting... i didnt feed off the humans tonight, the mere smell alone revolted me, i swear if i could i would wretch at the sight of them, but really, what would a mistress like me have to give back to the earth in such a situation? even thought Prophet will only be a part of my lie for a very short time, i am quite content to follow his steps... he keeps me well entertained.

as for being entertained, i spoke with an elder today who is part of another ideation, he is not fully one of us... he has a side that is not human, and is not blood thirsty, but part all together different. i have never seen one so illuminous... he goes by the name of Chael, but we all know it's not his human given name. he agrees with me that the human condition is quite unbearable... we had a lovely discussion over just this subjecy this evening... i only wish i didn't feel so protective around him...

i truly have backed myself into a high tower of the castle tonight... i just wish to be left alone for the remainder of my time... and then a deep sleep... often my best spent hours.